its been an half year after leaving london, in this half year, i hv changed jobs and met so many new faces, time flies too fast. in this colourful and energetic city, people walk much faster than me, it makes me feel i always left behind. i miss hyde park, tesco, british museum, underground, school and the place i can breath fresh air.
Finally i m off to take a break from now, people say its a break, to me its probably a new start. Seeing something which is so near to reach but now its going far away again doesnt make me feel good. How many years i have been spending time and money on it. i know i didnt waste my time and i start to learn more and more things outside the sch now. no matter what people will cirtize or giving comment on me, i really need a very possitive mind to deal with them. i am the only know myself far more than anyone else, what i am aiming for for years , what do i want. Maybe its just not a right timing but i am much better than others who didnt even hv the chance. I am so pleased to know there are some people do realise me the most, thank you.
another lab report is gonna be handed in tmr, still working hard on it, just spare some times here. someone has told me to see things more thoroughly rather than pushing myself in a coner. if things are only gonna be viewed from an angle, im just stucked, while view has sprending out widely, there is another world, see them through with the faith, no longer being sad or worried anymore on that problem. it helps me, thank you so much, you helped me to get it over.
i am so happy that after i told my fds what i was sad abt what they did on something, our relationship just get stronger, i feel like we hv nothing keep in the heart, so honest to each other.
i know there are too many things which can not be controlled. yes, thats the reality. is somebody telling me to add oil then everything can be solved? sometimes i just really want to give all them up, i know its kind of avoiding. ya i m nut. i m fxking nut to see the future which not in control. i m fxking tiring of spending time on something and end up in the middle of nowhere. i m not blaming anyone, just releasing my temper here. i m lost.
i m not a easy person to close with, and not many people can make me feel very familiar in the first time, but a cute korean girl made it. although we only met for few months, we just hit it off after few times. we went to watch phantom of the opera around this month of last year. Jeongah, are u doing good now in korea?i m still keeping ur text on the day u left. i really miss you.
Verse 1 (Beyonce) There are times I find it hard to sleep at night We are living through such troubled times And every child that reaches out for someone to hold For one moment they become my own And how can I pretend that I don't know what's goin on When every second, and every minute, another soul is gone
Chorus And I believe that in my life I will see (Oh yeah) And into hopelessness, of giving up of suffering (yeah) Can we all stand together this one time, Then no one will get left behind Stand up for life Stand up, and hear me sing Stand up for love
Verse 2 (Kelly) I'm inspired and hopeful each and every day That's how I know that things are gonna change So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on When every second, with every minute, another soul is gone
Chorus And I believe that in my life I will see (I will see yeah, yeah) And into hopelessness (hopelessness), of giving up (giving up), of suffering (yeah, yeah) Can we all stand (stand) together this one time (time), Then no one will get left behind Stand up for life (life) Stand up for love
Verse 3 (Michelle) And it all starts right here And it starts right now One person stand for band And the rest will follow For all the forgotten For all the one earth I'm gonna sing this song
Chorus And I believe that in my life I will see And into hopelessness, of giving up, of suffering If we all stand together this one time, Then no one will get left behind Stand up for life Stand up and sing Stand up for love, for love, for love
